Back then Jerry lived with his parents and
his baby sister in a white two-floor mansion that was too big for the family of
four. He invited us over on our way home from school. His mom was busy with the
baby when we walked in, but she called us into the kitchen and squeezed us some
fresh orange juice.
“How was your last day of school, boys?” she
asked us. She didn’t pretend to be curious. No, she actually wanted to know.
“Today was boring, mom!” said Jerry. “It’s
our last day! We didn’t actually do
anything.”
“Nothing,” Ben agreed.
I told her that the only serious class we had
today was English and Jerry threw me a death stare. He forgot to do the last week’s
written assignment. Today we got them back. Jerry got his usual F for not
turning it in. It was an easy assignment, but a bad theme. The theme was “The
Day That Changed My Life Forever.” I had nothing to write about, so I wrote
about Chucky. Chucky was my mom’s spaniel. He got really sick and we had to put
him to sleep when I was seven years old, so I wrote about that. Teachers like
sappy essays. I got a B+.
The baby started to cry in the living room,
so Jerry’s mom quickly fixed up her flowery dress and left us alone.
“Let’s go outside, you two,” Jerry said to
Ben and I, “I’ll show you something.”
He opened the net door and we stepped outside
into their huge backyard. White fence ran around a wide area of neatly trimmed grass.
The grass looked pinned down in place by a few tall oak trees that grew in random
places. There was a built stainless steel pool in the far right corner of the
lawn.
“You live in such a cool house,” Ben admired his
surroundings.
“Where is your dad?” I asked.
“He’s in Milwaukee on another business trip. He’ll be
back in a week.”
“What did you want to show us here?” asked
Ben.
“These trees,” Jerry pointed. “See the upper
branches? Bats sleep there. They sink their nails into the wood and hang upside
down. The branches are all intertwined in these old trees and bats feel safe in
them.”
I looked up into the weaving branches. I
couldn’t see any bats but I also couldn’t see that far up.
“I wonder if they dream. . .” I said.
“What?”
“I said, I wonder if bats dream.”
“What are you talking about, Billy? Who cares
whether or not they dream?” Jerry laughed at my question. “Man, they’re so
ugly. Ever seen a bat up close?” he asked us.
Ben and I shook our heads.
“Ugly creatures! They come out at night, but
maybe we could wake a few of them up now.”
Jerry picked up a rock from the flowerpot and
threw it into the foliage of one of the oaks. The rock landed somewhere in the
grass with a hollow thump.
“C’mon guys! Let’s see what happens!”
He picked up another rock. Ben followed him.
“Isn’t it dangerous to wake bats up like that?”
I asked.
“Nah,” said Jerry, “why are you always scared
to do things? It’s still too bright for them. They can’t see in the daylight
and they’re disoriented - easy targets.”
They tossed a few rocks randomly and soon Jerry
spotted a winged creature diving out of one of the trees.
“There’s the little bastard!” he screamed.
Before we knew it there were two or three of
them in the air and game was on! Jerry aimed carefully, but missed all the time
and Ben was downright terrible at it. He just liked throwing things. I stood
there and watched them getting a kick out of this activity. The bats,
disoriented as they may have been, were still pretty good at making sharp turns
and avoiding the rocks my two friends attacked them with.
Ben said “Come on, Billy, show us what you
got!” and handed me a stone.
“Why do you give him that?” Jerry mocked me. “He gets good grades! His aim is
probably terrible.”
They both laughed at me.
“Mister William, could you hit one of those bastards
for me, please?” Jerry continued.
To prove him wrong, or to shut both of them
up I threw the rock and all it took was one throw. It was luck mostly . . . There
was a thump, a squeal, and I swear to God one of the black creatures came
spiraling down. Right before it hit the ground it perked up and shot back into
the sky.
Like a roller coaster.
A hurt
roller coaster.
“Damn, dude, sorry I asked!” Jerry was
astonished. “We should call you ‘Bill the Kill’ from now on, jeez. . .”
But now his sense of competition had kicked
in! They both continued to throw the rocks at the poor creatures, but they both
continued to successfully miss. No one else got hurt that afternoon. Then one
of Ben’s rocks accidentally hit the hornet’s nest and a bunch of furious
inhabitants drove us out of the yard back inside.
Ben had to go home early. I stuck around for
little longer. My house wasn’t as nice as Jerry’s. His parents never argued and
I wondered why my family couldn’t be more like his. Jerry and I hung out in the
living room, watched TV and ate Cheetos until it began to get dark. Then Jerry’s
mom asked him to take the garbage out and offered me a ride home. I politely
refused.
“Are you sure, Billy? It’s almost a mile!”
“Thank you,” I said, “but I think I’m just
going to walk. I’ll be okay.”
“Your choice, Billy. Always a pleasure to have
you here.”
I didn’t want to be a burden and I could tell
she was relieved that she didn’t have to drive me. She probably didn’t trust
Jerry enough to leave the baby with him alone. I said goodnight and walked home
wondering if that poor bat knew what hit him.
***
Our furniture was outside scattered all
over the front lawn. The dining room table, the chairs, the fridge, the whole
living room set and the chandelier from the hallway. A lot of other things too
- personal things, books, records, paintings off the walls. . . It looked like
a yard sale. I was confused.
I spotted my father sitting on the couch
outside amongst all of our stuff. From far away it looked like he was just resting
there, but when I came closer I saw that he was asleep. He had his flannel
shirt unbuttoned and an empty bottle of Jim Beam laid out by his feet.
I touched his knee and he flinched.
“William, you’re home?”
“I’m home, dad.”
“How was school?” he asked me and looked
around.
“I got a B+ in English,” I told him.
My dad found the bottle empty on the grass
and frowned.
“What’s going on, dad?” I asked, “Why is all
our stuff outside?”
“A little spring cleaning,” he mumbled.
“It’s June, dad. Spring is over.”
A rusty pick-up truck that once used to be
red pulled up in front of our house and a middle-aged couple of corn farmers stepped
outside.
“Are all these things for sale?” the lady
asked us.
“Yes, mam” my dad said to her and buttoned
his shirt up, “everything you see here is on sale.”
“We were just driving home, we live in the
ranch nearby, but we couldn’t pass by that beautiful couch of yours,” the man
said. “How much do you want for it?”
“Three-fifty,” my father named his price. ”But
I can throw this armchair in for four hundred if you’d like.”
“Oh dear,” the lady gasped, “I think it’s a
good deal! Then we would have the whole set!” She asked her husband, “Could we
also take this table?”
“Tell you what,” the man said to my dad, “how
about we’ll take the couch, the armchair and the table for four-fifty?”
“Four-seventy five and you got yourselves a
deal.”
They shook on it, the man paid in cash, and
my father helped him load the three items into their pick up truck. The couple
thanked us and left.
We stood there watching the lights of their
vehicle pull away and disappear into the night along with our living room set. It
was already pitch dark outside, only a few streetlights illuminated the empty road.
My dad put his hand on my shoulder and said
“Come on, William, let’s go inside.”
“Are we going to leave all of this stuff
here?”
My dad didn’t answer, just crossed the
clustered lawn and walked inside. I followed him in. The house looked so empty and airy with all the lights on and
furniture gone. I brought two chairs from the outside in and we sat in front of
the cold furnace in the room that used to be the living room.
“Do you like traveling, William?” my dad
asked me.
“I don’t know,” I said. “Why?”
“I need you to pack up tonight, but we
don’t have much room in the car. Keep that in mind.”
“We’re moving?”
My dad nodded three slow nods full of
regret. We sat in silence for a few seconds, then I asked him - “Dad? . . .
Where is mom?”
He didn’t say anything for a while. He just
cried, and cried, and cried. And I have never seen my father cry before.