I write, so I would have something to read.

I write things that need to be written,

but

sometimes

friends ask me

for writing

pointers,

with trust.

as if I knew

what I am doing.

tell you the truth –

I don’t,

I never knew,

but that

don’t stop

me

anymore.

when years ago I tried,

I filled my notebook

pages up with rhymes,

a lot of pages

of a lot of notebooks,

and said

nothing,

till I stopped trying.

I often lay awake

at night,

thinking of things

that

will forever keep me

guessing

but, I'm never sure

just how much of it

is

poetry,

and how

much

bullshit.

there’re rules, you see,

a general agreement

on how

words should

be

arranged

to be called

poetry.

how long should verses be,

where should they rhyme,

what should the message be,

the moral

feeling

flow.

there are names for

different techniques

such as

'hexameter'

and

'pentameter'.

whatever happened to the weird and reckless?

the bottom line –

it’s science,

structure.

and I fuckin’ hate

structure.

it’s

breathless.

I always found it hard

to rhyme and stay

authentic.

the difference is –

now I don’t give a shit.

a poem’s what I say a poem is.